S’mores & Broken Dreams

Deep in the southern regions of California, is a place where summer nights are filled with S’mores & Broken Dreams. Welcome to San Diego, burrito central and DIS CRIS headquarters. This is the setting of my next story. A year ago, I wrote about The Almighty Universe, “the universe doesn’t like being controlled. I will continue to focus… up until the moment my destiny stops me in my tracks and makes me realize how much of a powerless human-being I truly am,” yup, that one. Last November, I submitted transfer applications to three fantastic music schools- CSU Long Beach, CSU Northridge and San Diego State University. Afterwards, I received word that all three music schools would accept me into their programs for the Fall of 2017. I would eventually choose CSULB’s Bob Cole Conservatory of Music to continue my education, I was set with three room mates and thousands of dollars in debt, however, this is not where I leave you. This past June, I had signed up for San Diego Choral Consortium’s Summer Sings! program. A yearly gathering of choirs around San Diego. The Director had chosen me to perform as their tenor soloist, it was a privilege, however, with joy comes searing and gut wrenching pain. During rehearsals I had received an email from CSULB’s Bob Cole Conservatory to update me on my application status. Well it turns out there wouldn’t be an application to update because I had been withdrawn for not meeting university standards. Now this is where I leave you, a bit abrupt, however in complete surrender of my future. The biggest lesson I’ve learned through this ordeal is to accept the inevitable. the universe doesn’t like being controlled. I will continue to focus… up until the moment my destiny stops me in my tracks and makes me realize how much of a powerless human-being I truly am.”

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Note to self- You are a damn sexy human being. Always believe in your magic.

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TALK – The All Mighty Universe.

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I’ll get straight to it. Never give up and always believe in yourself. With 22 years of existence comes 22 years of wrong decisions, which eventually leads to great ones. So here I am, one month from completing a gruesome 16 unit semester. I’m contemplating between two options, the better option and the “stop being mediocre” one. I know how it feels to be mediocre, doing what you can rather than doing your best. It feels just that, mediocre. Don’t get me wrong, some people actually have lives other than school. I on the other hand, don’t have an excuse. Well other than I’m focusing too much on my heart. Up until the end of 2015 I was the type of person who saw everyone as just friends. I had it all planned out. I was gonna live a happy “married to myself” life with a couple of dogs named Helga and Olga. It was the dream. Leave it to the year of the fire monkey to burn it all down. I liked someone, that’s so weird to admit. But I started to veer away from my focus which was Music and a second Major that I have yet to fully grasp. A week ago my brother and I drove to La Mesa for his Masters Program. We were waiting in his car because we overestimated the traffic and arrived early. We talked throughout the drive without even realizing, then it came- “we force to control the universe when in reality we’re powerless over our destinies.” My brother was unknowingly giving me life advice that I desperately needed. I was having this personal struggle about truly loving and potentially getting hurt. I was suppressing my emotions for the longest time, thinking that if I didn’t act on them then I wouldn’t feel pain. But the universe doesn’t like being controlled. I will continue to focus on my goals, up until the moment my destiny stops me in my tracks and makes me realize how much of a powerless human-being I truly am.

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04/20/2016

 

 

 

 

 

TALK – Happy 2016!

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View of Seaworld Fireworks from Fiesta Island, San Diego.

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I get it, I’m writing a New Years post in early March, but why not? Id like to think the start of the lunar year begins after the rise from 2015’s many falls. When the lessons start to emerge from the unfortunate situations we all had to go through. Its difficult to get here because it means acknowledging that the past actually happened instead of just sweeping those thoughts under the beautiful rug we all keep in our hearts. Its definitely hard to sift through the shards of broken memories we kept during the past year but with doing this can we entirely experience the rise and falls of the new lunar cycle. Where new memories are yet to be realized and appreciated. So this is my New Year, I might still be in a little bit of pain but it won’t prevent me from experiencing 2016 in its full glory (neither should you!). Never fear change, because only through this can you evolve into the fullness of you. Happy 2016!

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03/05/2016

 

 

 

TALK – It Wasn’t Meant to Be?

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Its 7:44 PM here in San Diego and I might have made the biggest mistake by deleting my draft for The Big Easy X An Adventure In Waiting, Maybe it wasn’t meant to be? Well I also wasn’t feeling my writing to be honest. Life is too short to ignore the silent whispers from within. Okay, I don’t listen all the time but those “silent whispers/my gut” has gotten me out of so much trouble and doing the opposite has given me just that. Maybe thats what “trusting myself” means. Because people can judge based on their personal history and knowledge but who knows me better than my own gut? We’ve been through so much cold pizza and fried snickers that our bond will forever be set in stone. Well that solves it then, it was my guts fault why there isn’t a Part 2 at this moment. Ha! Note to future self: always follow your “gut.” Second note: you got it kid!

Im sorry to the subs who kept receiving this post un-edited, by the way. I forgot how busy I was going to be this past week so whenever something came up I would push the schedule of the automatic post for the next day, but then Id wakeup the next morning with an un-edited blog on DISCRIS.COM. Ha! The Big Easy X An Adventure In Waiting is in the works, so patience. But yeah, SUBSCRIBE TO DISCRIS.COM! 

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